Everyone knows what it is like to feel upset. Nothing makes sense anymore and all of your motivation suddenly gone. Sometimes there is a particular reason, sometimes you dip down in a low moment very randomly. However, in my opinion you should never deny it by fake-acting very hyper. It doesn't work, believe me.
At first, you will consider this play as fine one. Like, hey people do fake their moods, play different personas, so why I can't? Right? But here comes complicated and important step. Don't lose yourself by pretending to be happy, because that hurts even more.
I used to think if I abandon myself from my real emotions, they will magically disappear, wave goodbye and never return again. Ha ha, no, they stay with you, but you simply hide them away in deep corners of your mind and heart, where that sadness grows into a bigger chaotic ball. Weeks pass, you live life as usual, not talking about your problems. Who will care? Why should I overload others with my personal issues? I will better go on Tumblr and search for some quotes. At least that the way I roll.
Then in a while, without any greetings, it will all come and slap you in the face. I would describe this situation as your body becomes a home for two people. Fake-happy you and sad you. Without any ruminations, your head turns into a field of a great fight. Eternal battle of feelings is a real struggle which you can't totally control. Staring at a blank space and zoning out, meet your new friends.
Therefore during one of sleepless summer nights I asked myself a question. Isn't it normal to feel down? It is our emotion, so why should we hide it not only from others but ourselves too. Yes, you are sad. Yes, you want to cry. So let it go. Cry. Cry it away, however, don't eat, starve or punch it away. Survive it. Let sadness go through your skin, so it will leave. And it will do that as you aren't keeping it to yourself anymore. Then move in the direction of your happy place. Of course, that might take some time, but don't give up. If you need help, ask for it. Ask your friend, family, someone you communicate through Twitter or Instagram, therapist, basically anyone you are comfortable speaking to.
Never let sadness turn into self-made grenade that will slowly, yet surely destroy you. Ignoring issue is not the way of solving it. Keep that in mind.
